e m p t y
Sunday, May 17, 2009
since when i have this weird feeling
substantial yet monotonous;
happy yet lonely;
stressful yet spiritless...
how many times i tell myself
i should be tough and strong;
how many times i tell myself
i should go on the journey even if im alone;
how many times i tell myself
after this i will get what i want;
how many times i tell myself
this is a natural process that everyone should have gone through;
how many times i tell myself
i must not give up.
i have a premonition.
after all these battles, i found myself a pathetic lonely kiddo.
i miss them, as in VERY MISS
i just saw their recent pictures.
so happy.
is it me or what?
i feel insecure suddenly.
if i go back to the starting point, will they still be there for me?
will it still be the same?
is the feeling changing after so long?
what a stupid question, i tell myself.
reality is always cruel.
from the moment i've leave the group,
i should have known this.
i realize part of me is missing.
out of a sudden, im empty.
i really miss them.
substantial yet monotonous;
happy yet lonely;
stressful yet spiritless...
how many times i tell myself
i should be tough and strong;
how many times i tell myself
i should go on the journey even if im alone;
how many times i tell myself
after this i will get what i want;
how many times i tell myself
this is a natural process that everyone should have gone through;
how many times i tell myself
i must not give up.
i have a premonition.
after all these battles, i found myself a pathetic lonely kiddo.
i miss them, as in VERY MISS
i just saw their recent pictures.
so happy.
is it me or what?
i feel insecure suddenly.
if i go back to the starting point, will they still be there for me?
will it still be the same?
is the feeling changing after so long?
what a stupid question, i tell myself.
reality is always cruel.
from the moment i've leave the group,
i should have known this.
i realize part of me is missing.
out of a sudden, im empty.
i really miss them.